Listen To The Lyrics

“I will go down with this ship, I won’t put my hands up and surrender. There will be no white flag above my door, I’m in love and always will be.”

                                  -White Flag, Dido

“Cause when I’m with him I am thinking of you.”

                                 -Thinking Of You, Katy Perry

Saw Titanic for the first time tonight :) It was cute <3

“With knives and pens, we made our plight”

Sadly, I picked the knife :/ …again. It had been six months, and of course I instantly regretted doing it but I can’t change that now. Time to bust out the scar cream again and pick the pen back up :/

I also just wanna say that I love Black Veil Brides, their songs help me through a lot of tough times. If it wasn’t for them, I may have 3 or 10 or 20 instead of just 1 right now.

I love you bvb! :)

Machines never have extra parts, they come with the exact number of parts needed to work. Think of the world as a machine, there are no extra parts; every part is there for a reason.

I, of course, disappeared again.

I really want to write more but I’m not actually allowed to use the computer because I haven’t ‘earned it back yet’ (I’m doing homework right now). So I can’t really write a lot, but I’m gonna change that, I swear (I don’t know why I’m even writing this, though, it’s not like anyone reads this…my friends don’t even read this).

Well, real quick I’ll just go over the basic stuff that’s happened lately.

School:

My first quarter report card I was not happy with…at all. But my dad was and now he wants to take me to the movies soo…whatever.

Friends:

Wow, well I have a lot to say about this topic and very little time so, sadly, it will have to wait.

Home: “No one can find the rewind button so cradle your head in your hands and breathe” - Breathe, Anna Nalick

Here’s the kicker. A lot of the major events that have happened lately go under this topic. First of all (this isn’t really a big deal but I want to talk about it anyway), I turn 16 next month and I want a party. A nice party. A big party. My dad, however, has a totally different vision then I do. I was planning a dance, cause my dad said ‘go ahead and plan’, and then I told him my plan and he said no. He said he was planning on me and 10 of my friends having a sleepover in a hotel room. Which I guess is okay but totally not what I was expecting for my 16th birthday. Plus that means I can’t invite guys. We’re gonna work something out.

Secondly (the more important one), my visits with my mom have been cut off. I know I haven’t written much about my mom but I plan to write more about her later. But ever since I was…maybe 8?…my Aunt has ‘supervised’ my visits with my mom for the day, every other Sunday. So it’s been about 8 years. And she has done a wonderful job. But now, she’s fed up with it. Not with me or coming to get me every other Sunday or taking me home, but with my mom. She’s tired of taking care of all my mom’s responsibilities for her, and I agree with her completely. She does everything my mom should, honestly, I see her as more of a mother figure then my mom herself. I barely see my mom when I’m over there anyway, I spend the day with my sister while my mom texts her current boyfriend. There’s another thing. My mom is dating my Aunt’s ex-husband’s brother, and my Aunt is not happy. My mom is not showing my Aunt any thanks for what shes been doing for her. If it weren’t for my Aunt, my mom probably would never see me. So now my Aunt is not ‘supervising’ anymore, and it’s up to my mother to see me herself (she doesn’t have a car, did I mention?). But my dad is very hesitant for me to go over there without my Aunt ‘supervising’. My Aunt will be there because they live together (with my grandma) but she wont have to be there. So, as of right now, I’m not seeing my mom, which oddly, I’m kind of okay with. But I’m writing too much, and no one reads this anyway so IDK why, so I’m gonna go. But I’ll write more about this later.

I know I’ve been gone forever and a day…sorry! :(

Well, I’m back now!

I changed my blog around a lil bit. I changed the name, as I’m sure you can tell and I changed the look of it. I’m just kinda starting over. I felt like it was really just kinda random and I didn’t like it. There was no reason or rhyme to what I was posting.

It’s just gonna be my everyday life, kinda like a diary, and less random crap like ‘is it sad that I love cody simpson?’. Its called Listen To The Lyrics because no matter how I’m feeling, I relate and connect those feelings to music. If I’m upset I’ll think of a song that describes exactly how I feel and I’ll walk around singing it. Whenever I like a guy, I always end up thinking of a ton of songs that relate to how I feel to him. So listen to the lyrics everyone, they’re talking to you.